I am acknowledging my downfall and from this point forward I want to work on it and move past it. The plan is to remind myself why I am doing this and to fight the inner deamons inside of me. I am going to go back to planning my meals and learning how to control myself on the weekends. I can not give in just because everyone around me can eat whatever they want. Everyone around me looks at me like I am crazy because I want to loose more weight. Fact is I am thick and I have heard several comments saying that I will not look right skinny to oh your fine the way you are etc so, I have become complacent and the truth of the matter is it is not about them it is about me and how I feel about myself . I want to get to a size 9/10 and that is it. It is my body and my life. I know if I do not get back on track I will be back at 260 lbs a size 20 and I can not have that and I will not have that. Everything I am doing is for me and the fact that I am aware of this and wanting to fix things shows how much this means to me. Many people who have anything negative to say about me are those who have not walked in my shoes and have not accomplished what I have so with that being said they are irrelevant. I am so ready to retransition my mind and body because I remember being so happy and so focused not to mention extremely confident no one could tell me anything lol.
Love you all and I will be back with a weigh in tomorrow and a weekly weigh in every single week, Thank you all for supporting me and being there for me you all are the best.